12/30/19

Hovering at the corners of my mind are
thoughts of new everything approaching.
It's hopeful, encouraging. It's frightening,
scary. It's wondrous, amazing. Many of us
thought we'd never se 2020; incredible.
And yet, it's here . . . only two days away.
Shall I throw a party? Write New Year's
resolutions? Go on a diet? Reconnect with
old friends? Check out my soul? What?!

Perhaps, it's easier for me as I'm now on
the other end of the stick. Or, maybe not!
Maybe, it's us oldsters who need to think
more profoundly about what's what at the
end of the day. I did grow up making about
20 New Year's resolutions, which I paid
attention to for about three days. Now I'd
rather write three and pay attention to them
for about 20 months. What's the old axiom?
"Keep it simple!" There has to be a reason
and I'm going to do just that. I think my
three are going to be . . .

     1) Pay attention.
     2) Keep it simple.
     3) Let it be.

I've spent my whole life lost in the clouds. I
get in the car and put my mind out to pasture.
I need to pay attention to business. I've also
been fond of complicating things. Simple is
a four letter word in my existence. Not even
certain I can learn, but I'm going to try. And,
I've never let anything BE. I obsess. I think,
"If only I'd done this or that." I try to fix it.
God in heaven, I wear myself out. Let it be is
going to be a real challenge for me.

So, I've got two days to obsess about my three,
but I think I'm going to try. One can only try,
right?!

choosing how to die
better to learn how to live
to live not exist