06/23/2021

Been thinking about old practices,

celebrations and traditions that

have gone somewhat astray . . .

I do miss holiday cards, not exactly

sure why. They're a rather Facebook

mode of staying in touch. Some

simply sign and send; others write

entire pages.

I love handwritten letters, getting

them in the mail and have even sent

them for years. But e-mail is ever so

quick and dirty! A good way to keep

up with today's speed. And, as I'm a 

hundred years old, 'tis easier to type 

than write!

I see families in restaurants on special

holidays rather than cooking their own.

I get it! I find the idea of preparing so 

many dishes overwhelming. Bring on

the menus!

Coffee shops rather than tea, take out

instead of a sit down meal, order in

pizza in lieu of cooking. None of this

is wrong or bad, just is! 

I pray I'm not too old to keep up!

help me ascertain 

which is better old or new

some of each perhaps

06/22/2021

Morning of the day after . . .

Oh, I do have to chuckle!  First

Winter steals Spring away from

us and then, when we finally get

some heat, it's cold and rainy for

the entire Summer Solstice!

As my dad used to quote, "If you

don't like the weather in Colorado,

wait 15 minutes."

Sooooo, what is it about weather

anyway?! I met an old dame this

week who shared with me that

Winter is her fave time of year 

as she literally can't take the heat.

Might just have something to do

with the fact that she looked like

she might weigh about 85 lbs. 

on a good day. Others swear by

Spring and Fall as supposedly

weather extremes are less than

the other two seasons.

I'm beginning to think I need

to stop paying attention to the

weather and just get on with

life!

whats the weather like

rain or shine have a good day

im intending to

06/21/2021 - Summer Solstice

I was beginning to think Litha 

would never happen . . .

Existing through months of Winter, 

adding in several stolen weeks from 

both Autumn and Spring, I calculate 

Winter's season was roughly doubled! 

Not even certain how I've survived, 

but God in heaven, Summer has finally 

arrived!

Today . . . Litha, Summer Solstice,

the first day of Summer . . . a day 

of pure joy for so many, especially

for those of us with SADS . . . 

I am ever so grateful!

Do come Mr. Sun, fill my body, 

my mind, my soul, with your heat!

I must be able to remember the 

warmth of your rays once the 

dark returns . . .

summer is my time

pray stay yet another while

boon of my being

Happy Summer Solstice!

09/20/2021 - Father's Day

I feel my father is never very far from

me. I talk to him every day. I tell him

my thoughts and that I miss him. I

even feel that he hears me . . . I'm

certain of it!

It wasn't that long ago that I realized

when in prayer, I find myself talking

to dad. I doubt God minds very much

as he is a father as well and probably

gets it.

I think about the father of my children

and what an amazing gift he gave me

in my children. I think about the fathers

of my stepchildren and again, I am so

grateful for the gifts they gave me in 

my stepchildren. 

I love Father's Day, the memories 

flooding back, the acknowledgements.

I would remind those lucky enough

to still have their dads, to spend time

with them. Alas, their time by our

sides is not eternal.

so wish you were here

father to end all fathers

oh how i miss you

06/19/2021

When I'm queen of the universe . . .

things are going to be very different!

There are things I'd like to change,

fix, remove!!! Probably, the fist thing

I'd like to demolish from the face of 

the earth would be child molesters, 

spousal abusers and purveyors of

violence of any kind!

It occurs to me, although I'm not a

true socialist, that there's no point

in millions of people starving whilst

others have billions they would never

be able to spend in several lifetimes.

What would be wrong with remaining

a millionaire, but then sharing the 

billions of excess?! 

World hunger would be a thing of the 

past! Schools could be built and staffed 

in a manner that the student-teacher 

ratio would better support learning! 

Health could be better assessed and

improved with more medical personnel,

hospitals and sanctums.

If good things happen in threes, perhaps

bad things do as well . . . so don't even

ask me what I would like to do to drug 

pushers . . . and no, I'm not talking about

the odd joint!

~!@#$%^&*()_+

Remember to vote for me .  . . 

Okay, tantrum over . . . I think!

06/18/2021

Never thought the day would come

when I'd become that forgetful old

dame! Knew it happened, somehow

thought it wouldn't happen to me . . .

and really didn't until I turned 70!

If you knew just how many things

I had forgotten this year . . . praise

God, I can't remember!

So now, I write down every little

thing on my calendar. I go over it

from time to time, to update, erase,

remember . . . and sometimes in

reading it, I even get the giggles.

And, here was me thinking that 

our elder years would return us

to simpler times . . .

 . . . alas, I've forgotten what I

was going to write about!

whats up for today

call it a day already

have nothing to do

06/17/2021

There is absolutely naught in this

world like a picnic . . . and we're

having one today!

It's been so delightful choosing

just the right props, implements,

deets . . . 

I have a collection of baskets and 

I know just the perfect one for the 

occasion! I have a cloth that might

work as well. And, I want cloth

napkins! 

Then there's the wine glasses. And, 

I want real glass, not plastic; the 

glass should be thicker rather than 

thinner. I'm thinking that perhaps 

the wine should be a screw top for 

picnic ease. I have yet to decide 

whether red or white; both perhaps?

The food could almost be left behind 

if I'm not careful! Scary thought. I'm 

going to have several kinds of special

cheese and a couple of good crackers.

Cherries might just be the fruit of

choice and maybe egg salad for the 

sandwiches. Now that I think about

it, hardboiled eggs and a special salt

might be fun so maybe I'll come up

with a different kind of sandwich. 

For dessert? Chocolate of course!

Do I sound like I'm ready for

summer, or what?!

so bring on the heat

lets picnic party and dance

been waiting all year

06/16/2021

Been thinking, dangerous business

I know . . .

I've been known to say that I'm the

most unbalanced Libra ever. So 

once again, I'm taking a look see.

Our lives are composed of family

and friends, work and play, beliefs

and worship . . . or not!

Harking back to my own imbalances,

I recognize that work always out

shown play. I freely admit that this

had to have been hard on my family.

And although, I loved my work, I

much regret that I didn't play more.

And as to beliefs, I have them and 

I tend to believe hard and serve in the

best way I can. All this reminiscing

tends to make me ask myself why I

think I'm so unbalanced?!

Perhaps, it has more to do with the

fast and furious way I dive into things

rather than an actual balance issue.

Something to ponder . . .

teeter totter me

walk the line try not to fall

up down all around

06/15/2021

"What good is the warmth of

summer, without the cold of

winter to give it sweetness."

~John Steinbeck

I bitched, moaned and groaned 

all winter and early spring about

the cold, the rain and snow . . .

 . . . I told my guy to give me 

a good slap, metaphorically 

speaking, if he caught me in

complaints about the heat!

Wouldn't you know it, today

was just shy of 100 degrees

and I caught myself just in

time. I was well on my way

to saying a few things about

such immense heat!

Is it possible that we humans

are never truly satisfied?! Do

we find fault with everything?

Not accusing, just noticing . . .

and I find myself falling short.

On the morrow, I'm going to

buy some suntan lotion and

bug spray and shut the fuck

up about the heat!

its too cold too hot

never satisfied i fear

need to learn silence

06/14/2021

My daughter-in-law talked to us

last night about the ability to love

without the necessity of liking.

This is a subject that has always

interested me and I have written

about it before. Still, it surprised

me to see comprehension re the

subject in one so young.

She talked about caring deeply

for the well-being of a co-worker,

but not loving her. She also went 

on to elucidate about other 

instances.

I find the opposite is true as well.

There are those I quite like, but

have not yet learned to love. I 

can't help but wonder if these 

are conscious intellectual choices 

we make, or if we are guided by 

our feelings only?!

I know of a few instances where 

a person has seemed to dislike 

me on sight. I'm not offended, 

this simply is . . . but, I do find it

interesting. I can't help but wonder

and be amazed at this whole love 

vs like dynamic. Add in the quandary

of the instant dislike bit and me 

thinks we all have some pondering 

to do!!!

not really sure

i like you i love you i think

wish i understood

06/13/2021

Continuing my birthday thoughts

from yesterday . . . I realize they 

somehow remind me of life itself.

And yesterday, we celebrated three. 

Looking around, I saw teens, young 

adults, families with small children, 

and then the oldsters . . . that would 

be us . . . family album in 3-D, as it 

were!

It occurs to me that this missive is

not so much about birthdays as it 

is about life . . . living the lives we

were gifted.

And perhaps inadvertently, we're

circling back to living vs existing.

We've been there before, so let's

just remember . . .

Let's live! Let's celebrate life . . .

birthdays, fun days, exam days,

sad days . . . all good as long as

we're actually living, not just

existing.

i so want to live

existings not good enough

lets celebrate life 

06/12/2021

Most glorious day of all days . . .

We started out with my guy's kids,

who I happen to adore . . . and on

to celebrate daughter and son. My

x-wife throws a b-day party like

no other. She simply wows me!

I so loved catching up with all!

Seeing the children all happily

married, parenting wondrously,

making a living, and enjoying

their friends . . . so rewarding!

Looking at them, one harks back

to when it was our turn. Truly, it 

was both amazing and a relief to 

know we were beyond diapers,

learning to walk, soothing tears

and hand making baby foods.

On the other hand, I don't think

we love anyone more than the

grandchildren. God bless them!

so loving these kids

teaching us to love and learn

blest beyond the pale

06/11/2021

"We are symbolically in the dark today,

so hold off on new beginnings and

concentrate on letting go of things you

no longer need. The day is good for

tying up loose ends." Astrology Cafe

I really couldn't claim to know much

of anything about astrology. My 

paternal grandfather, Samuel Jennings,

absolutely loved it. He bought magazines, 

followed his horoscope in the newspapers

and visited astrologists when he had the

shekels.

I enjoyed listening to him talk about it 

when I was a kid. He loved the topic,

kept himself well informed and could

really entertain with tales out of school.

I have a friend who has studied astrology

for years. She is truly knowledgable!

Rather wish I could talk to her as I saw

these this morning:

"Do you have problems during Mercury 

retrograde?" ~Deb

"Any trouble sleeping with the new moon

energy?" ~Karen

"Nightmares last night? The ring of fire 

solar eclipse occurred and we're in 

Mercury retrograde." ~Sabrina

Alas, I'm in the dark here . . . pun intended!

a new moon tonight

so love looking at the stars

wonder what they mean