03/13/2022 - The Sins of Retirement

I remember as a child, making 

an all out effort to be a good girl. 

And, I suppose, everyone sows a 

few wild oats in their teens. Still,

we have to grow up and sin on 

the side of being all responsible.

But, let me just sing the praises 

of that long awaited retirement 

era. Staying up to all hours of 

kingdom come or going to bed 

in late afternoon. Ice cream for 

breakfast, margaritas in winter, 

snacks and movies rather than 

going to work. 

There is something so naughty 

about deviation from the norm, 

the unplanned, the unexpected. 

We spend so many years of 

our lives obeying, being good, 

doing the expected.

Then all of a sudden, we are

released from those demands,

written and unwritten . . .

Sooooo, let's party!!!

love me being out

fascination runs amok 

so much fun sinning

03/12/2022

Pondering the evolution of friendship 

makes for insightful thoughts. As kids, 

we played together. Teen years seemed

to be about how much trouble we could

get into without getting caught! The

parenting years, we were supportive of

each other, possibly hoping we wouldn't

turn into alcoholics!

And at long last, as elders we come

together to somehow sort out a bit of 

understanding of it all. Doesn't seem to

matter whether it's in a proper spiritual 

discussion or over drinks and chuckles

as well as a bit of cursing!

I sometimes find myself missing friends 

of yesteryear; can't help wondering how

they drifted away. Still I imagine, as we

age, our worlds become smaller.

Bottom line though, friendship is ever so 

important . . . to be cultivated, cherished, 

honored. Bless that effort of trying to stay

in touch; the odd phone call, note or e-

mail! It rather weighs heavily on my mind. 

Here's hoping I'll find the necessary energy

from somewhere!

long to understand

friends matter ever so much

want to be a friend

03/11/2022

'Tis the middle of a sleepless

night, yet somehow it's the 

morrow. Zero degrees, a tad

of snow falling; winter time!

Pondering the symbolism of

Mother Earth lying dormant,

readying herself for the rebirth

Spring brings. Methinks, I'd

do well to follow suit.

So wish I had thought of this

analogy lo these many years

ago! I should be resting, just

thinking about what a new

Spring may bring into my life.

Braving the winds of change,

what might I invite . . . A new 

way of thinking? A look-see

into my spirit's yearnings? A

gearing up for personal growth?

There is a certain sense of new

expectations in this change of

heart. I'm learning to love the

possibility of mysteries unknown!

welcome times of change

trying new things on for size

excitement awaits

03/10/2022

I swear, I'm giving up the NEWS

for lent!!!

Heartbreak every which way you

turn. War torn lands, flooded states,

others without water. I swear, it

must be the end of the world.

And, I bitch because we woke up

to minus 5.3 degrees and a half a

foot of new snow.

Methinks 'tis time to have a . . .

'Come to Jesus talk with me!' Just 

stop your moaning and groaning 

already, ld!!!

Praise the gods I'm about a 100 

years old and giving myself

permission to stay-a-bed all day

today.

Into a fab book needs finishing

anyway!!! And, if the NEWS

isn't off in about three . . . I'm

going to take my broom to it!

03/09/2022

She arrived last night . . . 

one of my dearests and bests. 

I see us now, sitting by the fire

and sharing our hearts out!

The hours passed, the fire died 

down, the candles melted, the 

wine ended and still we sat and 

continued to share.

Seems I write about friendship

several times a week. I've ever

and always valued these sweet

relationships. Still, as one grows

older, they become more precious.

One of the things I want to give

some thought to would be the 

deserving of friendship. What

does it take? What is involved 

in being a good friend?

Perhaps the main thing would 

be, to be there! Be available!! 

Be present and counted!!! I do 

know that being a good friend 

truly matters to me. It matters

to even be friends with our 

children.

I'm pondering . . .

03/08/2022

"she battles her own darkness

by giving hope to everyone

around her with a smile bright 

enough to reach the darkest of 

souls" ~cwpoet

Every now and then, I get to

thinking about who I want to 

be when I grow up. Sometimes,

it will be a quote that somehow

inspires me. Others, I'll hear

someone speaking their own

truth.

I would have to admit that one

of the hard earned joys of being

about a hundred years old, would

be that odd bit of personal growth.

Alas, once you start to see it

happening, you realize just how

far you have to go!

Praise our Gregorian Calendar,

we have many new beginnings

at our fingertips . . . new days, 

weeks, months and years, even

decades. I intend to make good 

use of them. I have some growing 

to do written on my calendar of

days!

*cwpoet Caroline White is often 

an inspiration to me. I make the

effort to read her on a daily basis.

03/07/2022

My guy treated me to such a

sweet surprise at o' dark thirty

this early morn!

He built a fire, lit candles and

suggested we enjoy the snow in

panorama now that it's stopped.

We received six or seven inches,

enough to erase all blemishes in

the landscape. Such beauty!

I'm ever and always enamored

of the element of fire . . . it heats,

destroys, warms and diminishes,

to say nothing of its romantic

side. I find myself intrigued.

element of fire

warming body heart and soul

ever taking care

p.s. 'Tis o' dark thirty on the other

end of the stick . . . can't think of

when I've spent a more delicious

day! Bless the man!!!

03/06/2022

"It's important to live life with 

a knowledge of its mystery and

your own mystery."

~Joseph Campbell

The man speaks the truth, truth

we all need to be reminded of 

from time to time.

So love the word mystery here as 

well. Still, the truth is that so many 

of us mostly exist, rather than live.

One of the things I much lament is

coming to this truth about a hundred

years too late! Most of us get our

personal growth mixed up end to

end, don't we?!

I love our innocence as children. 

Can't help but wonder when it is

that we begin to lose that beautiful

trait?! Then, we get so involved in

the very existence of our survival,

we forget to live. 

Perhaps, change can still happen.

Where is it written that only the 

young can grow. Surely, growth

can happen at any age, even when

one only has little time left.

Bottom line, 'tis far better to pass

beyond the pale 'living' rather than 

simply existing!

tis a truth revealed

live rather than exist

sometimes forgotten

03/05/2022

Alas, methinks I've overdosed 

on Winter . . .

Every time I awoke during the

night, it was snowing . . . and

this after a few days of warmth.

Working on my attitude . . .

Three foot ice cycles melting,

One foot of our two and a half

feet of accumulated snow slowly 

disappearing. And, I'm told these 

are signs of Spring on its way. I 

hope so; I'm ready!

Then, I read the morning news.

The horror, sorrow over what's

happening in the Ukraine . . .

and I give myself a good shake

right down to my toes! 

"You don't even know what true 

sorrow is, woman! Get over 

yourself!! A bit of snow and a 

little cold is nothing compared to 

what's going on in the world!!!"

Pray forgive me, I was thinking

only of myself. I'm going to grow

up and shut the f--- up now!!!

personal growth rocks

at last paying attention

striving for it now

03/04/2022

"Life isn't just about darkness 

or light, rather it's about finding 

light within the darkness." 

~Landon Parham

Alas, we find ourselves in 

particularly dark times of late, 

utterly heartbreaking . . .

The Ukraine under attack, the

bombing of a nuclear plant, the

killings in schools, fire in its

destructive mode . . .

And then, I read the above quote

and I am reminded there is still

light in this dark, dark world. 

This is something we must recall

over and over again if we are to

survive these negative times.

Perhaps, light shines through in

the little things; letting someone

in front of you at the checkout 

stand, paying for an oldster's 

groceries, changing a flat tire 

for a gal in the parking lot. 

I am reminded of that infamous

misquote, "We are all broken, 

that's how the light gets in."

Methinks 'tis time to root for the

broken . . . bring on those bits

and pieces of light streaming 

through! Has to be what cracks

are all about!

03/03/2022 - New Moon

The New Moon is ever so auspicious, 

each and every month. It always moves 

me with its subliminal messages . . .

The key word here is 'new' . . . new 

beginnings, new dreams, new ideas,

new new new! I'm quite grateful that 

the new year isn't the only new we 

have at our fingertips!

There is something in our nature that

leads us to believe we can't begin again,

as it were, without a new! I particularly

like that in the New Moon each month.

I make these promises to myself each

and every . . . I'm going to eat right,

even exercise maybe . . . (emphasis on

the word maybe), eat less, lose the odd 

pound . . . I'll even save my shekels, 

etc. etc.

Still for me, the real romance of the

new moon is the sense of spirituality

I derive from seeing it, watching it.

It awakens in me such longing, a

sense of inner beauty, joy! 

Let's enjoy . . .

pray lunar lady

fill my soul with your beauty

resting in your arms

03/02/2022

March; what a month, what a beginning! 

We weep over those women accused 

and killed in the Salem Witch Trials. We

honor women, both famous and infamous

around the world as it is Women's History

Month. Ash Wednesday and the New Moon

simply put the icing on this amazing cake!

I imagine these women of yore, looking 

on incredulous as we verge on war, world

hunger, rampant killings and homes burned.

Indeed, they would wonder if things never

change, or what they bothered to fight for.

The questions today might be, "What am

I willing to fight for? How may I do so? In

what ways may I stand up and be counted?

What is my legacy to our young daughters?"

I recall that bit of wisdom, "If you only do

one good deed a day, that's still 365 good

deeds in a year." Overwhelmed with the

current state of things,  it's too easy to give

into that nothingness of inaction.

Sooooo not who I want to be when I grow

up! I will poke and prod my brain to find

little ways I can do a 'daily' for others. If

we were to all chime into action . . . just

imagine those concentric circles ever

broadening and expanding across our world.

Pray I rise to the occasion . . .

03/01/2022 - March! Spring!! Ostara!!!

Just as I'm about to die on the vine,

March arrives. I know Winter is no

where near over, still 'tis hope in

the making!

My childhood memories of March

have to do with wind. My dad used 

tell us the winds came to sweep

Winter away. Once in a while, we'd

get a little whirlwind on the play

ground. We'd all rush over to dance

in it before it disappeared. 

I find myself longing for Spring!

It's supposedly just around the 

corner, but in our neck of the woods,

the first month of Spring is Winter

extended!

May as well confess, the celebration

I most long for is Ostara, otherwise

know as the Spring Equinox and the

first day of Spring . . . March 21st.

For me, it rather signifies beginning

of hope, the return of the sun and

happy days awaiting!

Here's wishing us all the best March

ever . . .

lets dance together

we will tap to march music

a whirlwind awaits