12/11/18

So, what is mother trying to tell me? I've made
an effort to talk to her at least once a week. I
made a promise that I would do so and mostly
I have kept it. But, it's only been recently that
she is appearing regularly in my dreams. Last
night I dreamt that my friend and her mother,
along with my mom, came to visit here at the
cabin. It was all very pleasant, amicable even.
Still, I don't get it. I would say she was in her
70's . . . not much older than me . . . still spry
and quite chatty. There we sat, the four of us,
the two elders and the two olders, if you will.
In deference to the olders, I served tea rather
than wine, although my mother would have a
glass from time to time. The two old gals sat
in my comfy chairs and we sat in a couple of
wooden chairs. It was odd in that my friend
lives in New York, our moms have passed,
we live in this tiny, 120 year old cabin, but in
my dream, we coalesced into a perfect state
of dreamscape. I want to know, nay, I NEED
to know, WHY? What was that all about?
Were they just checking in? Did they want
to know how we were? Did they need us to
know that they were fine? There didn't appear
to be any great message . . . but I somehow
felt bereft upon awaking. You can bet she's
in my thoughts now . . . and I impatiently
await the message . . . what can it be?

alas i await
lets not beat around the bush
tis me needs to know

p.s. I recall perfectly before my own father's
passing that he used to tell me he'd inexplicably
been missing his mother. She would come to
him in dreams and they would talk. He left us
not long after . . . rather scares the bejesus out
of me . . .

I think your dream tells you that you have received what you were asking for.  When we spoke you told me about the difficult experiences, feelings, interactions of caring for your mother through her illness/passage time.  You were looking for ways to let go of the pain and shame around it.

Then you wrote a lot about what is of value to you.  Like a Winter Magic gift list.  What happened in your dream sounds like it sums up your gift list.  Beautiful warm connection with friends, family --- easeful and both ordinary and wonderful.

So she shows up and has a lovely visit with you.  What better way to know that what you did was accepted and did what it needed to do?  (Maybe mom read your Christmas/Solstice/Light gift list and gave you your gift in the form of this dream?  "Oh, this is what you want?!  Oh, you want to let go of those old painful memories and emotions?  Here, have this!")  Beautifully done Magnificent Manifest-ess of self-healing!

Peace! Love! Appreciation! Rebeccah

p.s.  I love the way you invite opinion and then discern what is your very own sacred truth.  Thank you for the invitations and acknowledgements. ~Rebeccah White 

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Dreams come out on their own schedule. I see them as clarifying past mystories. ~Kathleen Ford