Dec 31, 2017

12/31/17 New Year's Eve

What a wild weekend!
Cooking, cleaning, laundry
and guests. Wasn't sure I'd
quite make it there for a
while. It was all good and
quite exciting. No weddings
for a while, please!

unexpectedly
survived wedding and parties
bought lotto tickets

Dec 30, 2017

12/30/17 - Nico Weds

Today I wed my first grandchild.
Sometimes, I believe I think of myself
as that young woman who came back
to US, or the gal who turned 40 whilst
teaching in Commerce City. And yet,
here I am, only two years away from
70. Gives one something to think about.

the wheel still turning
should celebrate this each day
alas we forget

Dec 29, 2017

12/29/17

We're in Grand Junction marrying my first grandson.
He came home from the Army for the event. They
are just so young . . . but so was I.

like mother like son
dreams of yesteryear today
anticipation

Dec 28, 2017

12/28/17

Nicholas, who was only born yesterday,
has not only joined the army but is coming
home today to get married. So hard to believe.

anticipation
a marriage in the making
off to my home town

12/27/17

Antonio, my godson, surprised me with
spending the day with me. I swear, I love
him nigh onto as much as I love my children.

nuestra plática
la sorpresa es mía
es tan sabrosa

12/26/17

Recovering from x-mas with Russel's family.
It was delightful and I was and am engentada.

define family
his hers mine ours theirs it works
wonder of wonders

Dec 25, 2017

12/25/17 - Christmas Day

'Tis Christmas Day and part of me can't even
believe how this has happened. I honor the
Christian Christ; he was an amazing man.
So wish we could all be more like him. He is,
and always will be, one of my heroes.

on this christmas day
honoring the christian christ
heroes remind us

Dec 24, 2017

12/24/17 - Christmas Eve

It feels more like X-mas as it snowed
last night, just in time for the holidays.
The trip home was treacherous! But,
Russel is a pro driver after all.

praying for safety
a white christmas awaits us
the price of beauty



Dec 23, 2017

12/23/17

I find myself longing for peace,
world peace of course, but I was
thinking more along the lines of
peace within. Being anxiety ridden
all the time is a great deal of hard
work. I'm beyond exhausted with
it. Pray send out the little men in
white coats if there is no cure . . .

prayers by my bedside
so longing for peace within
will pay any price


Dec 22, 2017

12/22/17

We've got to work out this delivery thing. The
UPS man, or whomever, came both yesterday
and the day before. We were here and neither
of us heard him We are empty-handed and not
quite sure how to work this out. Might seem
silly, but it is the holiday season, after all.

waiting for santa
yule maiden did not come
where are my heroes

Dec 21, 2017

12/21/17 - Yulle, Winter Solstice

We came home from Longmont last night
as we had gone to see ZAK. We hadn't seen
him in four years. 'Twas most lovely seeing
him and catching up. The two moms, Robin
and I, took us out to lunch and ZAK surprised
us by treating. Ones grown up children are
always rather a surprise.

when did you grow up
from teenager to adult
blink of an eye

Dec 20, 2017

12/20/17

I should celebrate. Got almost an
entire four hours of sleep last night.
It's just getting better and better. 'Tis
no wonder some troubled souls turn
to drink, but I refuse as I only want
it for celebratory purposes.

pray mister sandman
sing a song for me for me
need my lullabies

Dec 19, 2017

12/19/17

what's the price the cost
ere i die of exhaustion
pray pay the sandman

Dec 18, 2017

12/18/17

Been coming apart at the seams for a
long while now. Sometimes are scarier
than others and that's probably to be
expected. My prayer is that I can see
the humor and not go the alternative
route just because the joke on me has
lasted far too long.

stay with me girlfriend
you can make it through this too
your track records good

Dec 17, 2017

12/17/17

As conscientious women, we most likely
spend our entire lives making the effort
to grow, to become, to be someone. I
imagine the struggle feels different for
each, but in the striving, we are sisters.

longing to become
will i ever measure up
starting to despair

Dec 16, 2017

12/16/17 - Celebrating Yule

At Yule, the dark half of the year abdicates
to the light half. Starting at sunrise, the sun
climbs a little higher and stays a little longer
in the sky each day. Solstice Night, or the
longest night of the year, the sun's rebirth is
celebrated with joy.

pray lets lose the dark
longest night new beginnings
welcome mister sun

Dec 15, 2017

12/15/17

Reading isn't necessarily escapism.
Having said that, not certain I could
survive without it. It brings the world
and its saving grace to my doorstep
even as I am a prisoner of my own
choices.

a gift from the gods
the love of literature
keeping me alive

Dec 14, 2017

12/14/17

I find myself wishing for a good night's rest.
It seems like it's been forever and a day since
I've slept much and slept dreamlessly. I have
to wonder what it is about the human psyche
that causes sleeplessness and nightmares.

forget sleepless nights
longing for some clarity
i want a refund

Dec 13, 2017

12/13/17

betwixt befuddled
tween spellcastings and cursings
id rather be jinxed

Dec 12, 2017

12/12/17

tossing and turning
hello sleepless my old friend
i want a divorce

Dec 11, 2017

Dec 10, 2017

Dec 9, 2017

12/09/17

running scared so scared
when will i ever be whole
praying for that day

Dec 8, 2017

12/08/17

thinking back today
memories and mementos
priceless yesteryears

12/07/17

in friendship honored
a sharing of hearts souls minds
tis of thee i sing

12/06/17

banking fears and tears
kindness mercy surround me
worse is yet to come

Dec 5, 2017

12/05/17

man up face the day
tis with much fear and trembling
to hospital now

Dec 3, 2017

12/03/17

to laugh or to cry
tis cold moon esbat tonight
why then such longing

Dec 2, 2017

12/02/17

twixt and tween again
longing for home anywhere
my heart is weary

Dec 1, 2017

12/01/17

so sorry must go
leaving my heart for a while
soon soon to return

11/30/17

am waiting for you
my lady at the crossroads
await your wisdom


11/29/17

where have i long been
remembering friends faces
a gift of gladness


11/28/17

will it never end
oh god whoever you are
scared beyond belief