05/13/18

Of family and graduations . . . I am brought back
to my thoughts, dreams and considerations. I find
myself with family and friends, watching my own
grandson graduate and remembering only yesterday
when it was my children in the line up. It is almost
unbelievable, experiencing and seeing the cycle of life.
I feel so fortunate to be here.

children shining forth
not ending not forgotten
from my eyes and hers

05/12/18

Of late I have been reading, hearing the
meaning behind those brilliant words,
"Tomorrow is another day." I so wish to
incorporate into my life that YESTERDAY
is past and that each new day we face is
yet another opportunity to try again and
do better . . . and if we fuck up, tomorrow
is another chance. I have to wonder what
it is about me that only lives in the past,
dreams of a better future and gives little
thought to the present. I'm learning but
part of me so wishes I would learn faster!
Never satisfied, eh? ~!@#$%^&*()_+

yesterday is past
learning to live in present
future not here yet

05/11/18

At least I'll get to see two of you today.
You are so far, far away that I can hardly
bear it sometimes. You did the right thing
by moving away and I'm so happy for you;
I just miss you, is all. I've been contemplating
the whole friendship dynamic of late. We are
so lucky; most never even experience a
friendship such as ours. Yes, lucky us!

my forever friends
not only valentines day
each and every day

05/10/18 – Día de las Madres

The library saga continues. Yesterday,
Russel moved in three more bookcases,
perhaps yet another three today. There
are 13 in total. I'm reminded of a chuckle
I read once. a mover was dealing with a
gal's bookcases, which is backbreaking
any way you look at it. He asked her
finally, "Lady, why didn't you read these
damn books before you moved?!" I
rather imagine Russel must have similar
feelings.

in a sea of books
in love with the written word
can't wait to read all

05/09/18

The new library is actually beginning
to look like one. Such joy to watch
the creation evolve, if I may use those
two words together. Slowly, but surely,
I am witnessing the demise of an
archaic garage and the birth of a new
space. Me thinks there may be a lesson
here! Need to think about this.

the birth of a dream
the wait tis almost ended
a long time coming

05/08/18

Today is the day! Antique Persian rug,
two bookcases and a desk will be the
beginning of the new library. I search
for a name of a special goddess for
whom to name the library. I'm ever
so excited to witness this dream of
mine coming true! I can hardly wait!

a home for my books
a have for women friends
a joy to be shared

05/07/18

Dreams of yesterday . . . my library is paintd
and almost ready to be moved into. It has been
a process; make no mistake. The longing, planning
and happening; all of a piece. I can only imagine
the hours of enjoyment to be spent there. There
will be classes, discussions, conversations, teas
and a bit of solitude when needed. I so thank
my man! Bless him!

a haven of books
imaginings that wont quit
solace to be found

05/06/18

I awake with the joy of a most glorious day
and night spent. Rest after contentment.
Fine thoughts and fabulous memories. I
wonder, were it possible to live eternally in
such a way?! Is this something to strive for?
Must I plan? Heaven forbid I should live life
as it comes! I'm coming to understand I'm
more of a yesterday and tomorrow person
rather than a today person. I truly believe 
enlightenment is ONLY achieved by living 
in the moment. I do believe much is learned 
by focusing on the past and that it is

appropriate to plan for the future . . . but 

not at the expense of the present. Now, if 

ONLY I could adopt this and get on with it!

play with ideas
ruminate about life death
what is the answer

05/05/18 - Cinco de Mayo

I so love the fifth of May!
Cinco de Mayo, mom's
birthday, my daughter's
birthday, our anniversary,
such a day for celebration.

remembering her
cinco de mayo ahoy
such celebrations

05/04/18

I much appreciate the perspective that
spring in the foothills comes after June
first. I thin my first mistake was going
by the Pagan calendar marking March
21st as the first day of spring. It may 
be on said calendar thusly, but it
doesn't ring true in the reality of Mama
Nature. I'm going to re-set my calendric
expectations. And make no mistake, I
much appreciate the moisture the snow
has gifted us. I bet Mama Gaia is ecstatic.

mamas looking good
wet and lush from her snow spa
now the drying off

05/03/18

Snowing again! And it's MAY! I'm ever
so tired of winter. It's only five weeks
to summer; looks like spring may be
bypassed completely this year.

winters hanging on
spring is sprung and grass is riz
not bloody likely

05/02/18

'Tis May and I always thought May represented
early summer, as it were . . . and it is supposed
to snow today; go figure! Maybe it's like this
every year and I simply forget. Having said that,
it feels like this has been the strangest Spring
E V E R !!!

longing for summer
tired of cold rain and snow
give me some real heat

05/01/18 - Beltane

Happy Beltane to one and all! There is
something wrong with Beltane being
on a Tuesday, don't you think?! Still . . .

a first day of may
my heart explodes in wonder
tis beltania