02/28/2021 (#15 NO WATER)

What is it about three . . . number

three, the third time, the third day . . . 

pure magic! I am sooooo into the 

three! Color me three. . . ed!

Today, I awaken with hope, I've 

needed it for such a long, long time. 

Not to mean, I've been hopeless all 

the while. There are just those days 

that I am so overwhelmed, me thinks 

there is no way I can go on from here!

Learning to cope is an amazing skill; 

so not given to all . . . alas, I am one 

of those who have always doubted, 

if now downright dismissed my ability,

or lack thereof, to cope. I pray, let it be . . .

Here's to learning how to let it be . . . 

how to cope, although bloody unlikely . . .

Pray the gods help me . . .

mother pray teach me

learning to let it all be

how do i let go

02/27/2021 (#14 NO WATER)

Yesterday, the words fell from my fingertips

as if demon possessed. Today, I find myself 

standing at the threshold of this moment in 

time, as if awaiting the courage to open the 

door . . .

The door to what, pray tell? What secrets lie

beyond?! Joy after sorrow? Peace after war?

Understanding after ignorance? Unimaginable

bliss?

And yes, the fear is there . . . this pure,

unadulterated fear . . . fear of the unknown,

the unexpected. I ask myself, "Is it possible

that I might simply be afraid to be utterly 

and completely happy?"

"Is it that I'm afraid of the price I may be

asked to pay? Will I have to pay with a

life? One of my children's? Friends'? My 

own? Or perhaps, my life as I have known

it up until now?!"

One may spend an entire lifetime seeking

understanding, comprehension . . . and all 

of a sudden, when faced with the possibility 

of utter joy, run with a fear previously 

unexperienced.

Not certain just what I'm feeling?! Am I

sorry for myself? Disappointed? Do I 

actually 'get' this woman on what appears to

be a treadmill situation?! One step forward

and two steps back? ~!@#$%^&*()_+

It's rather like praying for enlightenment 

and when the answers come knocking,

hollering out, "Sorry, can't come to the

door right now, I'm on the phone!"

pray give me courage

open my eyes to visions

finding me baffled 

02/26/2021 (#13 NO WATER)

Great grandmother, pray enlighten me?

Grandmother? Anything she doesn't know?

Mother? Where are you when I need you?

Reaching out to my ancestral dames . . . 

Pray help me; I am beyond my depth! 

Not sure where to go from here; not certain

I'll be able . . . sooooo not giving the right 

advice; not representing the courage needed!

You, most wondrous ladies, you have been 

there, done that . . . pray, help me deal with 

these horrendous upcoming times! I am

counting on you . . . I have no one else . . . 

I find myself on my knees, in absolute 

abjection.

Knowing not to whom I pray, I beg, beseech,

implore you to have mercy, the mercy of a

mother . . . let her be . . . let her be well! She

is worthy, has committed no sin; take me

instead . . .

Oh daughter of mine . . . may you be, just

be . . . I celebrate your very existence!!!

love without measure

mothers love knows no equal

a daughters being

02/25/2021 (#12 NO WATER)

On the 12th day of winter,

my true love gave to me . . .

eight inches snow,

frozen pipes awaiting,

no water yet . . .

Actually, much as I dislike winter,

I find I'm quite happy to take a snow

day! My guy has been working so

hard to get the pipes unfrozen, drains

working . . . water bottles everywhere,

so we have plenty drops to drink.

My son has been a god-send, giving

us drinking water, a shower or two 

and a clothes wash. He makes light

of it, but it's truly ever so helpful!

After a few quite nice days, this a.m.

we woke up to about 10 inches snow.

Me thinks we're going to sit in front

of the fire, listen to some music, even

sip a glass or two of red . . . a bit of

time off from water issues, as it were!

Hey, were it not for the plague, we

could throw a slightly smelly party . . .

call it white and bright

just recouping by the fire

leave your boots outside

02/24/2021 (#11 NO WATER)

Somewhere 'midst winter, no water

and or anything else you can come

up with, lies . . . wonderland! All

you need is that childlike awe . . .

Love the resilience of the human

spirit! It can actually overcome

almost anything! Initially, you

might not think so . . . and then

things start to happen!

You might not think you're strong

enough to endure, seek alternative

options, listen to unwanted advice;

somehow things start to unravel,

settle down!

Here we are in winter wonderland

with no water, but my amazing guy

has gotten us drainage and there's

hope for the morrow. 

Me thinks I might just double dare

you to live in a 130 year old cabin 

to prove yourself! Ha! We're proven;

make no mistake . . .

Next thing you know, we're going

to be making homemade brew in

our washtubs! Yikes!

dreams of yesteryear

wish i were a pioneer

but i am of sorts

02/23/2021 (#10 NO WATER)

God, what a saga we are living!

Seems to me that we may actually

understand some of the trials and

tribs our people of yesteryear went

through during their sojourn in this

130 year old cabin. So hope there

was joy as well!

Per a few requests to elaborate on

our own little foray into the darker

side of life . . . My amazing guy

was able to drill through the ice

once we rented an electric snake

yesterday afternoon. We have 

drainage; yayyyyyyy!!!

Today, he'll be taking up the jane

and floorboards to fix a broken 

intake pipe. Hopefully the last of

the frozen water in the well will

melt in today's 50 degree weather.

Just in time for snow tomorrow! 

We'll just have to wait and see. 

I find living in the past, as it were,

a most interesting experience. We

have an electric heater running 

under the cabin as well as a heat

light in the well. These are things

never thought of in our modern

world.

Here's me thinking I'd best don

my long dress, braid my hair and

put on my bonnet. Mustn't forget

to lace up my boots . . . 'tis a bit

deep around here!

alas im longing

so in love with yesteryear

needs me some modern

02/22/2021 (#9 NO WATER)

Oh the joys . . . and sorrows of living 

in a 130 year old cabin . . .

I've always longed to, you see, and my 

guy made it possible as I don't think I 

could make it here on my own.

I bought the cabin 9 years ago thinking 

it would be an ideal place for my women's 

circle to gather, hold the odd birthday party 

and meet with family . . . and indeed, it has

been all of that.

Three years ago, getting my affairs in order 

after some serious health issues, we moved 

here permanently at my behest. It has been 

nothing if not a challenge, and my guy is a 

HERO; make no mistake!

It has been a step back into yesteryear, 

which I have indeed loved! Nonetheless, 

that doesn't change the issues. At this

point, our pipes have been frozen for 9

days; no sign of unthawing. I purchased

a couple of heaters to put in the well and

under the cabin. 40 watt lightbulbs help

in the well. 'Tis quite the ordeal.

Praise the gods for Home Depot, even

Wally World . . . we have bottled water, 

each other and all is well. Do pray for 

a thaw! However, wouldn't mind a

shower!

live in yesteryear

thinking twice about modern

nah i like it here

02/21/2021 (#8 NO WATER)

There's nothing in the world like 

family, friends and neighbors, 

is there?!

All have offered us water as well

as showers during this difficult

time. I feel grateful just knowing

there are still this kind of people

out there.

Yesterday, we hit up my son for

showers and a clothes wash. A

real blessing, indeed! The best

part of course, was seeing him.

Good thing we're all keeping a

distance as a hug would have

been far too smelly! Ha!

I know I've been pretty annoyed,

if not downright angry, over

frozen pipes, no water and all

that goes with it. Still, this gives

an opportunity to recall the

blessing of water and all that

this gift brings to us.

Perhaps, today will be the day

we get water. Here's hoping!

And, on the eight day . . . water?

clean clothes clean clothes clean

showers never felt so good

would pay anything

02/20/2021 (#7 NO WATER)

Alas, today makes seven days without

water . . . frozen pipes, no baths, no

dishes washed, no toilet . . .

For me it has brought to mind those

amazing pioneers crossing the plains,

fording rivers, climbing mountains

and often dying in the process. What

amazing examples of tenacity, courage,

and drive. Me thinks I could get a clue!

We live in such a phenomenal era of

ease. We drive to work, we order out,

all manner of foods available at the

local supermarket, and never, ever to

forget cellphones that are beyond any

thing we could have ever pondered

in the not too far distant past.

Thinking along these lines brings me

to the conclusion that we don't even

have a clear idea of what arduous 

difficulties actually are.  O U C H !!!

Sooooo, here's me thinking that rather

than bitching about no water, I'd do

well to get out my old history books

and have a look see!!!

rivers streams oceans

looking forward to water

buy a jug or two

02/19/2021 (#6 NO WATER)

Pondering my dubious future 

never affected me much before 

turning 70!

And, I do consider it a gift. Yes, 

I've read all the adages that say 

it's a gift denied to many. Frankly, 

I'm quite surprised just how much 

I'm enjoying getting older. Never 

expected to live this long, much 

less like it!

Just think, I wouldn't have known

outings in the travel trailer. I would

never have had a clue what it was 

like to go to a pub. Fam reunions 

would have been out. And bottom 

line, I've loved living in my 130 

year old cabin!

Still on my future agenda . . . 

ordering pizza for home delivery. 

So much ice cream to be eaten at

odd hours! And, as I've only worn

black for many a year, I'm actually 

considering adding in a bit of color 

to my wardrobe!

love me some aging

experience never lived

got me a long list

02/18/2021 (#5 NO WATER)

Dad used to say when I was bummed

about something that I needed to make

a list, a list enumerating the things for

which I was grateful. Bless his heart;

used to annoy me, but I so get it!

Having done this many a time, I'm

thinking I should do it having to do

with the weird. Indeed, there are so 

many weird things that appeal to me.

So love me some ice cream in bed

'round about 4:30 or 5:00 a.m. I like 

leftover cold mac and cheese when I

don't feel like cooking. Love it when

my guy hands me a tiny bite of the

cookie he's eating.

So fun when we're going somewhere

and accidentally bypass the turn. All

of a sudden, I see a place I'd like to

have a look see. Going down the road,

my guy says out of the blue, "Hey, 

there's a pub; let's stop and have a

brewski!"

Out and about, I've unexpectedly run

into an old friend. Once greeted and

chatted up, they suggested lunch . . . 

and actually follow through! One of

my kids sends me an e-mail saying,

"Saw this and it reminded me of you!

Love ya!"

so love me some weird

strange unusual funky 

yes that would be moi

02/17/2021 (#4 NO WATER)

Did you ever hear your little kid say,

"Mom, I need a bath!" I know! I know!

Not bloody likely! Just try being w/o

water for 5 days!

No drinking water, no bathing water,

no washing water . . . just try flushing

with all the sodas and drinks you have

in the house . . . no, I'm NOT kidding!

What a phenomenal mess!

I would have to admit, learning to think

outside the box here. So Baby Wipes

are no longer for babies and a change

of clothes is tantamount to a shower. 

I'm only sorry we tore down the100

year old privy when we redid the place.

I'm thinking! I'm thinking! Isn't it in

the Orient where you can rent a shower

by the hour? Me thinks we would do

well to have something along those

lines! And here's me not having had a

vacation for ever so long . . .

pondering notions

think outside the box woman

need awakes answers

02/16/2021 (#3 NO WATER)

First, we were at minus 5 degrees, 

then minus 8 . . .

Never thought it could get so cold. 

Wow! The pipes have been frozen 

in both the kitchen and the bathroom 

for two days . . . so we're out of H2O.

I did manage to stash a five gallon 

bucket of water in the shower just 

before all this sub zero freezing 

occurred. And, we do have a case 

of drinking water, thank God! 

I accidentally catch myself in the 

mirror from time to time; YIKES !!! 

So, I've been running into ye olde

Phyllis Diller on a regular basis. 

She no could have done better 

herself!

Not sure where we're going from

here . . . I may have to wend my

way up the mountain and beg a

shower from my son if he still 

has water. Perhaps a local hotel.

Did I ever mention how I suffer

from SADS and hate Winter

because of it?! ~!@#$%^&*()_+

pray bring me water

so longing to quench my thirst

a pearl of great price