10/13/19

Me thinks I scored when it comes to
life companions. Mine woke me up at
0 dark 30 this morn and asked me if
I wanted to watch Hawaii 50 with him.
God, I love this guy! Due to certain life
choices and never winning the lotto, we
live a rather simple lifestyle. One of the
thing I so admire about my lover is his
ability to add a bit of spice to an otherwise
plain meal . . . we have fun, no matter
what! As soon as it's light of day, I'm off
to buy a ticket!

ever remember
midst the worlds sorrow and angst
fun no matter what

10/12/19

Me thinks I need a time-out . . .
a break from being a grownup,
a rest from the intellect, perhaps
even from doing the right thing
for a bit. I want to eat, drink and
be merry . . . wonder if this has to
do with all the upcoming holidays;
there are so many of them! No
need to worry; sometimes I get
like this in October. Less than a
week and I need to be all grown
up. Maybe I'll want reminders
from time to time, that it's alright
to play as well.

help needing a break
grown up times a coming right
lets play for a while

10/11/19

I'll be the first to admit that Winter
and I do not have any kind of a decent
relationship, much less a phenomenal
one. Still, yesterday was a wondrous,
glorious day spent in front of the fire,
reading throughout, glancing up from
time to time to see the snow gently
falling . . . a day worthy of champagne.
Twelve hours and five inches later, we
still hadn't had the champagne and
we decided on bed over celebration.
I must say, best intro to Winter ever!

winter wonderland
why oh whyd you come so soon
so wasnt ready

10/10/19

Maybe it's not that I hate snow
so much in itself, it's just that it
somehow marks the beginning of
Winter. So, here we are, not even
mid-October, and it is snowing
copiously! I love Mama Nature,
but I wish she'd realize that this
is wayyyyy tooooo early! Still, it
is beautiful outside and the only
tracks in the snow are animal.
Damn, Santa Claus will probably
be arriving even before we've had
time to celebrate Halloween;
forget Christmas!!!

sing along with me
here comes the sun i mean snow
no celebration

10/09/19

'Twas just the three of us yesterday . . .
toiling through years of memories
from the boarding school we attended.
Religion, work, school, friends, those
too conceited to spend time with us . . .
There was laughter, chatter, first-time
understandings, and for me, finally tears.
I had to excuse myself and have a good
cry. I imagine that each of us take that
walk down memory lane from time to
time. Indeed, those previews turned
reviews, can be hard to take. I do have
fond memories; I'm also glad I survived.
Teenagers can be cruel to each other;
perhaps, 'tis all about the lessons to be
learned for our adult futures. We all have
our learnings, our knowledge, and our
opinions. Still, tolerance, kindness and
decency go a long way in this ever so
difficult world.

return to the past
been there done that over it
don't wish to go there

10/08/19

Confesión o plegaria???

Hablando de majaderías . . .
acuerdo viviendo en México
que nunca dije más allá de
CHIHUAHUA!!! Mil perdones
a mis amigos que vienen de ahí.
A los 37, vine para los E.E.U.U.
con mis hijos y naturalmente,
empecé a hablar inglés . . .
junto con el aprendizaje de
algunas palabrotas, las cuales
enrojecerían a ambas mi abuela
y mi madre. Bien me acuerdo
cuando mi mamá me lavaba la
boca con jabón si sólo empezaba
a mal hablar. Estoy haciendo la
lucha de limpiar un tanto a mi
boca . . . pero admito que es una
lucha de pobres posibilidades.
Necesito irme al confesionario.

ayyyyy palabrotas
favor de perdonarme
hago la lucha

10/07/19

Our fave bear showed up again in
the early hours . . . as gynormous
as Manhattan! It likes to tip over
the trash can so the lid will open
and give easy access. Then it's
pawing through the trash until
there is a delectable find. It's
always a mess to clean up in the
morning, but we love seeing the
bears throughout the warmer days.
Obviously, we can't risk going out
at night and we're cautious as hell
in the early hours. Still, it's a kind
of miracle to have Mother Nature
so close to hearth and home. I
pray for our safely always, but
love the signs of Mama out there!

love signs of mama
mother nature ever here
old and new clashing

10/06/19

So love me some October surprises;
they abound! We've been visited
daily by our fave bear (God, I hope
it's the same one!) every day of the
month thus far. He likes to tip over
the garbage and suss out a snack.
Strangely enough, he never picks up
after himself! Might be male; no
disparagement intended! The neighbor
cat, who I call, 'My sometimes cat,'
likes to come in after the bear has
done her the favor of providing a treat
or two. Must be after that when the
odd mouse comes to party! You know,
I was warned about the wildlife I'd
find here at the cabin. Guess I was
expecting elk and deer, even a fox
once in a while. And yes, they do visit,
but it's usually these other guys that
come so often!

so looking forward
my own animal kingdom
lets party hearty

10/05/19

I walked down the aisle, choosing bath
fixtures, when an elderly man approached.
He was gorgeous beyond words. Obviously
Mediterranean, he had on a black leather
jacket, longish styled gray hair and a
plethora of silver jewelry. Stunning! Here
I am turning 70, wondering what life holds
in store as I become ancient . . . 'twas as
if the gods sent me a message! Of course,
I just had to whisper to the man and he
responded by chuckling, twinkle in his eyes
and all. Not sure I can buy the whole, "Life
begins at 70!" bit, but I get it now! I still get
to be me . . . oh what fun I'm going to have.

wondering whats next
love me a secret message
join in the fray you

10/04/19

Yesterday, my guy gifted me a
memory lane tour through the
most gynormous antique store
ever. It was fun to recognize toys
from my childhood, devastating
to see some priceless items I had
inherited and given away, hilarious
to see bits and pieces I had once
thought I needed. Obviously, it was
more like a museum than a store . . .
and no entry fee! I have no idea
how much I could have spent if I'd
had the shekels and/or the space.
I finally settled on a small antique
table that I'll be using as an altar.
I'm going back . . . feel free to send
donations!

time machine ahoy
like love need want dream no chance
land of yesteryear

10/03/19

I have to wonder why it is we gals
hate mice so much?! Living in a 120
year old cabin, we get the odd mouse.
You can have NO IDEA how much that
bothers me. Still, must be dealt with!
One came in under the screen door a
few days ago. I set two entire packages
of traps yesterday . . . go figure! Some
where around 2:00 in the morning my
sleeping brain heard a trap go off. I was
awake instantly. Got out of bed and did
a happy dance. Me thinks I'm just a tad
messed up; bet other women understand
me completely! Only one mouse to go . . .

me a nervous wreck
so crazy in my old age
should i laugh or cry

10/02/19

Deborah Hinton graced us with a
lovely quote this morning . . .

October gently entered through a misty
haze of beauty. She came to draw a soft
cloak of gossamer gold, green and brown
across the land. Created from the Hart

I don't know if I love October so much
because 'tis the month of my birth or
because of the magic of the 31st or
because it marks the last bits of Fall
before Winter sets in. Make no mistake,
there are times I'd like to move the
entire month to Summer, but no one
asked my opinion when creating the
calendar. Part of me would like to go
back in time to those magickal times
of our youth. I wonder if my memories
have been dressed up a bit, but what
could one expect from Halloween?!
Putting together outrageous costumes,
hayrides, pumpkin decorating parties . . .
such fun! I do hope we all get in the
spirit of Autumn and put together some
fun October magick.

a birth year for me
dreaming in black and orange
whole towns celebrate

10/01/19

I thought October would never arrive . . .
'Tis here in all its glory . . . backgrounded
in those magnificent fall colors . . . with the
anticipation of a phenomenal Samhain . . .
and best of all, finally reaching that much
longed for milestone of 70 amazing years
of life. Truism that it might be, it all goes
by so quickly. 'Twas only yesterday, I was
a child helping to care for my little bro. It
was only a few minutes later, I was courting,
marrying and birthing my children. Just
a moment has passed since I entered my
crone years, found a love that actually
'got me', allowed me to BE and took me
to a 120 year old cabin where I could walk
'mongst the spirits of yore. I celebrate . . .
L I F E !!!

long awaited for
days go by year after year
finally arrived . . .

 . . . in quest of 70