04/01/2021 - April Fool's Day

Oh the kaleidoscope of memories 

spiraling through my mind . . .

Not exactly sure why, but this a.m.

I find myself recalling a certain

childhood prank . . .

I had it all planned out. I woke up

early, sauntered into the kitchen all

sleepy eyed where my mother was

preparing breakfast. All of a sudden,

I stepped back, pointed and screamed, 

"Eek a mouse!" I swear, my mother 

must have jumped two feet. Poor lady!

My dad was as angry as I've ever

seen him, but when I laughed and

said, "April Fool's," he got it and

let it go. My mom calmed down

a bit as well and I was assured we

would talk about the incident later

in the day.

That night after supper, they sent

my brother on to bed and talked

to me at the dinner table. Daddy

explained we had to be careful in

our jokes because someone could

get hurt.

My mother, now calm, added that

if she had heart problems, my

April Fool's joke could have

caused her to have a heart attack.

Actually, I think that was my one

and only foray into the whole

April 1st thing . . .

maybe i shouldnt

of perilous jests i sing

know what today is

03/31/2021

From the distain I have always 

felt for winter, I've come to realize 

I need an attitude adjustment.

Yesterday, I sat in front of my

living room window and watched

the snow dripping into oblivion.

The trees were densely covered,

yet in only a few hours time, they 

were bare.

As we have a couple of feet on the

ground, its disappearance will take

much longer, but the lesson is there.

Time changes everything; wait it out

and see what you can learn from it.

I'm beginning to perceive winter 

as a time of withdrawal. Summer 

parties long past, those stunning

colors of autumn taking their rest,

perhaps it's time for me to do the

same.

Winter is a time to hunker down,

drink in the isolation encouraged

by the snows. Pondering, thinking,

meditation, all good calls in the

quiet of the season.

Me thinks I'll just have a look-see 

at what I need to learn . . .

quiet of winter

no better time for lessons

experience now

03/30/2021

The realization that we've just lived

through three months of 2021 . . .

and I still seem to be overwhelmed 

with the happenings of 2020, is more

than a bit scary.

It occurs to me that we're not talking

about 2020 and 2021 as two separate

years. Rather, a time of a world wide

plague that transcends the borders of

a two year period. Perhaps, we could

refer to this historical period as . . .

COVID  in; COVID out.

The anxiety and fear of catching the

the plague has diminished greatly

since my guy and I have had the two

vacs. However, I just read yesterday

that a friend of mine is way down on 

a list of 3,000 sign ups for said vac.

There certainly are more questions

than answers. Still, it occurs to me

that perhaps these diseases that tend

to plague us every so many years, 

might have something to do with 

over population. Could it actually 

be possible?

am still questioning 

life and death and in between

who has the answers

03/29/2021

At o' dark thirty, I came downstairs . . .

to find our Lunar Lady had done it 

again! She appeared high up in the 

sky with a complete circle of red 

surrounding her. I was so stunned at 

her beauty I simply had to sit on the 

stairs and watch her for a while.

I found myself wanting to see her

again a couple of hours later. This

time, she was low in the sky, twice

as huge and yellow, yellow, yellow!

My guy joined me on the stairs and

we were simply wowed into silence.

It's hard to understand that magick

spell of Lady Luna. I enjoy her so

much, no matter her phase. I like 

to meditate with her daily. I use the

days from the new moon to the full

moon to meditate about things I'd

like to add to my life. The days 

from full moon to new moon, I use

to ponder those things I would like

to walk away from in my life.

Lady Luna, phenomenal incentive, 

no matter her phase.

lunar lady mine

how i worship at your feet

my inspiration

03/28/2021

It's been exactly a year that we find

ourselves under wraps . . . March to

March, as it were.

We've made the effort to only do our

monthly run to SAMS every three

months. Let me tell you, it makes for

some pretty interesting meals!

Think spaghetti . . . now replace the

spaghetti noodles with multicolored 

salad pasta. Put hot sauce on top as

you don't have anything to make

spaghetti sauce out of. And, don't

forget the olives since you're out of

mushrooms!!! Of course, no pine

nuts or parmesan cheese on top as

you're out of those too. Like I said,

interesting!

Miracle Whip and raisins tend to

work just as well as mayonnaise

and olives in your tuna salad! Sour

cream works in your jello salad if 

you're out of whipping cream. And,

you might just like your granola on

plain yogurt rather than with milk.

Speaking of milk . . . when it sours,

just make cheese out of it!!!

When people ask me how I've lost

weight, I've hesitated to tell them

it's down to COVID 19. They might

think I've been ill, rather than just

out of certain groceries. 

Who knows how I'll cook once all 

this brouhaha passes!

call me chef ld

experiences ahoy

want to come over

03/27/2021

Ahhhhh . . . 'tis Saturday and not a

cloud in sight. And, I've heard a

rumor we are to have decent temps

today! Yayyyyy!!!

Me thinks I'll be having ice cream

for breakfast . . . and if you know 

me, you'll also know I'm not joking!

Oh my God . . . The powers at be

must have looked over my shoulder,

seen me writing this and are taking 

their revenge . . . IT'S SNOWING!!! 

Go figure!

I give up . . . Guess I'll just go and

work on my attitude adjustment 

now . . .

its snowing again

thank the gods for the full moon

tis my saving grace

p.s. Decided to have ice cream

in bed anyway! Ha!

03/26/2021

A reprieve . . . Perhaps the gods love

me after all! For an entire day and a

whole night . . . no snow, no sleet, 

no rain! 

So, we decided to play hooky. Stayed 

up late, slept in, had breakfast in bed,

saw a bit of news, and enjoyed the

mattress over our non-existent couch!

Fab day! I'm renewed . . . come and

get me Mr. Storm!

May as well straight up confess . . .

We're doing this thing; exploring,

for a lack of a better word. We're

having a look see at some of the 

old flicks from our youth.

Funny how some are naught like 

we remembered. Others are a breath 

of fresh air. We try and recall movie 

endings, alas they are holding them-

selves aloof. There are even those 

that I only saw in Spanish whilst 

living in Mexico.

We have yet to add champagne to

the mix, but it sounds like fun!

loving me my moon

playing hooky in the sun

goodbye mister snow

03/25/2021

Praise God from whom all blessings

flow . . .

 . . . I see blue skies and white clouds

peeking out above the snow laden 70

foot pines in my back yard!

Snow is taking a break from a three

day run. My heart kneels in gratitude; 

I may survive after all. 

We sit by the fire, margs at the ready,

pretending 'tis Summer . . . a new kind

of phantasy, if you will!!!

I would ask . . . "Who is it that's being

capricious? Mother Earth or me?" I do

get that our state needs water and we

also require a Winter's rest in our souls.

Having said that, not sure how I'm to 

proceed, rested or not!

My alarm clock is ringing. Wake up!

'Tis Spring . . . or was that just a joke

on us?!

find myself ready

good bye spring hello summer

lets get some heat on

p.s. It just started snowing again . . .

Oh God, pray help me . . . I may just

not survive this time . . .

03/24/2021

Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD), 

a form of depression that tends to 

occur as the days grow shorter in

the fall and winter. It is believed

affected persons react adversely to

the decreasing amount of light and 

the colder temperatures as autumn

and winter progress. The symptoms

of SAD include regularly occurring

depression during the fall and winter 

months; full remission in the spring 

and summer months; no nonseasonal

depressive episodes. William C Shiel, 

MD, FACP, FACR

Interestingly enough, my guy

asked me last night to talk about

SAD so that he, and perhaps others,

could understand it. He added that

although he is supportive and ever

helpful during the Winter months,

he doesn't really understand it.

Although, I believe Dr. Shiel says 

it succinctly, I would add a couple 

of details. First of all, there is no 

control over what you are feeling; 

it simply is! Secondly, those feelings 

are so intense that death is longed 

for with every fiber of your being. 

Praise the gods that Colorado has

a lot of sunny Winter days. When

this occurs, all negative feelings

simply disappear as if by magic.

So longing for Summer . . .

03/23/2021

Me thinks the entire nation must

be grieving for what happened 

yesterday p.m. in Boulder.

Our hearts sorrow . . . The angst

and fear suffered by the onlookers.

The loss of life to those simply out

to buy groceries for their homes.

And, this poor soul who needed 

to take lives in order to quell his 

inner demons . . .

There are no answers . . . only 

questions. And still, I keep 

thinking, there must be a way 

to find and help these poor lost 

souls.  'Tis beyond imagination, 

this need to randomly maim, 

kill and destroy.

How will we ever find our way?

pray send the lifeboats 

drowning in this dark dark world

ever seeking light

03/22/2021

Here 'tis o' dark thirty and it's

snowing and snowing and

snowing . . .

My guy went down about 4:30

and he tells me we have eight

inches or so. I understand it's

to snow for the next couple of

days as well.

I find myself upset, shaky,

wondering how I'm going to

cope. All Winter long, I swear

I'm going to find a way around

this SADS business. I do pretty

well and then it really hits me.

The moisture is important. We

need water to survive. Our state

needs the water. Everyone needs

water . . . but, it's only the second

day of Spring and I find myself

drowning . . .

pray give me courage

lose the dark turn on the light

hurry hurry now

03/21/2021 - Ostara

What an amazing, incredible Ostara!

Yesterday, celebrating with friends

and neighbors and today, with a 

fellow sister. I simply cannot believe

just how lucky I am to know such

unbelievable souls!

The first day of Spring brings hope.

I sit here, observing a copious snow

and I ask myself, "First day of Spring?

Really?" But, me thinks there has to

be somewhere that Spring is actually

blossoming full bloom. Part of me

wishes I were there . . . but, I do love

Colorado, my man and our time by

the fireside!

Perhaps, it takes thinking about in

terms that have nothing to do with

weather! Spring in my heart? New

beginnings? A time to start anew?

Yes, I desire to renew all that is 

good in me . . . I want to dismiss

all that isn't. What courage and

discernment that would require! 

So hope I'm up to the task!

Bottom line, here I am praying 

I'm up to anything the Universe

asks of me. I know it will take all 

of the courage I can muster and I 

swear, I'm in for the long haul!!!

living the moment

finding myself full of hope

so pray let it be

03/20/2021

Don't think you'd ever accuse me

of being particularly artistic . . .

Having said that, how I love

decorating my dining room table

for the Esoteric holidays. I speak

of the first days of Spring, Summer,

Autumn and Winter, along with

May Day and Halloween, etc. 

Yesterday afternoon, my Spring

tablecloth arrived in the mail so

this morning, at o' dark thirty, I

was up and laying the table. So 

much fun putting out the Ostara 

bunnies, the stone eggs and any-

thing else I could think of that 

was Spring-esque. 

I ask myself why this might be

important? It comes to me that

we all need reminders of those

special days that hold meaning

and memory for us. Symbolism

is important. 

Obviously, life offers us every

emotion available to mankind.

These special holidays bring 

out the good ones . . .

Happy Ostara, first day of Spring!

so love me some spring

praying for warmth light and green

hope for brighter days