03/13/2021 (#28 NO WATER) sink?

"To live is the rarest thing in 

the world. Most people exist."

~Oscar Wilde

I know this is a subject I touch 

on over and over again; it's critical, 

both to be reminded and to impress 

on the mind the need to strive.

How I long to live! Not even a day 

should be spent only existing. I  

so lament the time I have wasted.

Obviously, one can't live on the 

edge all the time. Time spent 

preparing a meal is necessary in 

order to sit down at the table for 

a splendid repast.

I like the metaphor . . . plan a 

meal, buy the ingredients, prep 

the table and decor, make that 

meal memorable . . . sit down 

with someone special and raise 

a toast!

Must be much the same with 

living over existing! There's 

nothing amiss with dancing 

the daily grind. It's the ground 

work necessary to make that 

orgasmic moment happen!

Bottom line, don't get bogged

down in minutia. Deal with it 

as a necessary stepping stone to

a bigger and better everything!

pray come live with me

so finished with existing

dance card almost full 

"I have been in survival mode for

so long; now it's time for me to

live." ~Stephanie Bennett-Henry

03/12/2021 (#27 NO WATER) sink?

I don't know if music can change

the world overnight, but I know

that music can help someone 

make it through a difficult night.

~Michael Franti

What is it about music?

I swear, sometimes I'm listening 

and my soul just wells up without 

control, sobs simply erupt from 

the bottom of my heart!

Obviously, we all like different 

types of music. Perhaps, it's what 

makes the world go 'round. I love 

Esoteric music, weird instruments 

along the lines of Enya. Like some

Western singers; Willy Nelson is 

my absolute fave. I enjoy a tad of

jazz, love me some rock 'n roll,

but not hard rock.

I'm ever so grateful to my parents 

for taking the family to the local 

community concerts regularly. 

It was a wondrous introduction 

to Montovani and other amazing 

artists. I can actually recall my 

young heart swelling with joy 

when experiencing operetta for 

the first time.

This afternoon, we sat by the 

fire, listening to Ella Fitzgerald 

and Nat King Cole. We toasted 

the two legends and gave thanks 

for the absolute delight to be 

found in their music.

the joy of music

gileads balm to my soul

gift of the ages

03/11/2021 (#26 NO WATER) sink?

If we allow ourselves to be enchanted

by the beauty of the ordinary, we begin

to see that all things are extraordinary.

~Dean Koontz

I would have to admit that this is the

one thing that I have truly learned by

living in my 130 year old cabin for 

the past three years.

Part of this is most likely due to living

under my doc's death threat. Add in the

incredible beauty that surrounds me and

this thoroughly decent man I am lucky

enough to call my lover . . . and you have 

beauty at its best.

Learning to live, really live, rather than

simply existing, is my path as I have

turned 70. Obviously, one does slow

down a tad, but me thinks we must 

become more discerning as the body

finds itself a bit more tired . . .

I love finding, as well as understanding,

true beauty in these latter years of my 

life. Sunflowers plucked by the side of 

the road, fresh fruit presented in bed 

upon awaking, the offer of a napkin 

otherwise forgotten, a, "Hey, let me get 

that for you."

I find myself wanting to make others

feel this same joy I am experiencing. 

Not sure it's possible, but it's still fun 

to make those little things happen.

true beauty surrounds

me thinks my heart is open

eyes unveiled at last

03/10/2021 (#25 NO WATER) sink?

"What a difference a day makes!"

~Stanley Adams

We had intended to journey tonight,

but seems Mama Nature had other

plans in mind. We got a message 

at o' dark thirty, advising us of the 

change in weather. We hopped in

the pickup with a, 'no, never you

mind' and got the hell out of Dodge,

about 36 hours earlier than planned.

My guy, pro driver of yesteryear,

made the four hour trip in three, 

both going and coming! I'm be-

yond wowed; make no mistake!

We all went out to eat at our fave

Mexican restaurant, had a couple

of very decent margs and a fine

meal. And then, ordered in pizza

for a day of no-cooking! No muss,

no fuss, no dishes . . . but yeah, 

a whole lot of calories. As we

used to say in college, "I'll start

my diet tomorrow!"

The trip home was harder than

the going due to exhaustion. It's

not everyday that you travel to,

celebrate all day, and then travel

back . . . what an amazing 16

hours!

As it turned out, it started to 

snow about the time we got to 

bed. Woke up to about half a 

foot and beyond thrilled we're

home safe.

Let Mama Nature do her worst!

family tis best

find myself ever so proud

tis the tie that binds

03/09/2021 (#24 NO WATER)

I may just have the sweetest guy 

ever!

Scary, but we often fall asleep 

around 6:00. We are retired after 

all! Last night he nudged me a bit 

after midnight, just as I was finally 

falling asleep.

He was so cute . . . asked me if I'd 

like to watch a movie with him. Of 

course I said yes . . . and then he said, 

"Why don't we share a bottle of wine?" 

I thought he was joking, but he wasn't.

One can only imagine . . . these two

oldsters, up in the middle of the night

watching movies and indulging in a

glass of wine. Even we had never 

done this before. Such fun!

This year, post 2020, is only just

beginning to disclose itself. We'll 

have to wait and see how things 

turn out. Having said that, I'm into 

exploring and capturing any and

every wee bit of magic that avails 

itself!

Salud!

magic in the weird

in unexpected places

capture whilst you can

03/08/2021 (#23 NO WATER)

Me thinks I've heard my entire life

that change is not only difficult, it

seems to be especially hard on the

elderly.

For one thing, I don't tend to think

of myself as elderly, just as an elder

longing to have the knowledge and

insights expected of me at this age.

Sooooo, one of the things I wish 

to embrace is change, this change

that everyone seems to think we

oldsters have such a hard time with.

I would have to admit that I've 

found not teaching very difficult.

I so loved the classroom, taught

41 years and find myself a tad lost

without it. I am very fortunate to

have those faithful few who feel

they can learn from me. I tend to

see it as more of a sharing with

one another.

I miss driving my pickup. As my

docs don't allow me to drive since

I cracked my skull open three years

ago when I fainted one early morn, 

I have needed to adjust to my guy

driving us everywhere. He's been

fab about it as well; bless his heart!

And believe it or not, I've gotten

a bit clever with this whole no

water for these three weeks of my 

life. It's good to know I can laugh 

about it, make allowances, think 

up new ways of coping,

Now, if I could only learn to cope

with . . . Nah, I am sooooo not

going to confess to that here!!!

~!@#$%^&*()_+

nope dont believe it

im young as i ever was

so not aging well

03/07/2021 (#22 NO WATER)

Alas, I feel a 'Pity Party' coming on . . .

I actually find it quite reprehensible 

that a 71 year old woman would give 

into a 3-year old's tantrums!!!

I'll have to make a last ditch attempt

to keep the lid on so nobody knows . . .

But, I can scowl with the best of 'em; 

make no mistake!

Our pipes finally have the drips, but

still no proper water. Another strange

thing is, even turning off the water

the drips won't stop. 

Although I'm no Pollyanna, looking 

on the good side of things, collecting

the drips in buckets means we can

wash dishes, flush the jane and even

treat me to a hair wash! It just takes

time and patience . . . What's that last

word again?! ~!@#$%^&*()_+

alright ill be good

got the message loud and clear

you can go home now

03/06/2021 (#21 NO WATER)

Today marks 21 days without water 

here at the cabin. There's a kind of 

magical symmetry to that if you think 

hard enough. Three weeks, three times 

seven, twenty one. I obviously have a 

thing for numerical nuance.

It's been interesting, to say the least . . .

Garnering drinking water from Natural

Grocers, catching a wash and a shower

from time to time at my son's, awaking

to my Phyllis Diller routine every a.m.

To say nothing of heat tape everywhere,

two heaters under the cabin, spending

more time upstairs than down . . .

 . . . Wait for it, this morning we heard 

a drip. In fact, 'twas a drip, drip, drip!

The dripping was even warm. Not to

count victory just yet, could be water

just itching to return, or pray God no,

could be a ruptured pipe. 

Bottom line, it's only a drip . . . but 

I've seen hope created from less!

heres hoping praying

never thought id pray for drips

give us a gush babe

03/05/2021 (#20 NO WATER)

The term souvenir has only just been

revisited upon me. In my world travels 

of yesteryear, I never fell for anything

touristy, nor ordinary . . .

But, when I see it, I see it! An unusual

piece of material, an eye-catching mug,

a weird piece of jewelry; such fun!

Rather like that wee bit of seasoning on  

an otherwise perfect dish!

I'll fess up right now, there is nothing 

quite as alluring to me as the town

mercado. I would swear before local

authorities, personal invites have been 

sent me from all over kingdom come!

The cacophony of sounds, the banquet

of scents, the artist's pallets of color . . .

pure orgasmic joy!

Alas, as I no longer travel afar . . . 

thank the gods for 2nd. hand stores!

romance of the trek

a true seduction of sorts

delight my senses

03/04/2021 (#19 NO WATER)

What's the old adage, "Three times and

you're out?" Alas, has happened thrice,

so I may have to bid you all adieu if I'm

not careful . . .

The first time, 'twas an unknown trying

to entice me into a 'get rich quick scheme'

and all I had to do was send him a money

order to make it happen. I lost my FB

account and all of my friends over that

one.

The second time, under the guise of my

long lost cousin, same song second verse.

I got out of that one virtually unscathed,

but lost all contact with her and I do miss

her.

Third time's charm . . . using the name

of one of my fave Junior High teachers, 

I was asked to send my non-existent 

shekels for greater rewards.

I do wonder what this world is coming 

to, but mostly, I find myself wondering 

if I have a sign on my forehead some

what along the lines of . . .

 . . . "Gullible, please take advantage!"

end of innocence 

suppose i must live and learn

my heart is breaking

03/03/2021 (#18 NO WATER)

I am invincible, unassailable, unbeatable . . . 

I have been vacced up the ying-yang. Pray

this makes me safe to receive my peeps!

I find myself just fine with the COVID 19 

vaccinations for elders only just coming up. 

Frankly, I needed to think about all this for 

a bit. Imagine living a full year in this god

awful plague and then passing onto the 

better life from the vacc.

I would have to admit, the one thing I 

really look forward to is getting out more.

Much as I enjoy solitude, wine by the fire,

and the company of my lover . . . getting 

on the road from time to time is important.

In fact, I'm not even sure I recall what the

road looks like!

Harking back to getting the Smallpox vacc

as kids, living through the fear of AIDS,

and the Swine Flu just a few years ago, me

thinks we're up for dealing with the plague.

In fact, like it or not, we are dealing with it.

Still, I can't help but wonder if these illnesses

have something to do with our population 

control. I pray not, but . . .

pray come and visit

sit a bit by the hot fire 

warm brandy perhaps

03/02/2021 (#17 NO WATER)

I always see the month of March

with that odd flash of hope! As a

childhood friend of mine pointed

out yesterday, March brings Spring.

Of course, we're still in the midst

of Winter, but as the 21st approaches,

hope does grow. I have to laugh at my-

self, as it happens to me every year.

The little girl in me wishes to awaken

to blue skies, green all around, salted

with blooming flowers and a good 

dose of heat! Alas, the 21st or not,

most likely it will be grey skies and

snow as far as the eye can see.

Then, I remember that one of our

elementary teachers would say

something along the lines of, "It's

Spring in your heart!" I love that

child like optimism!

Children are joyous by nature . . .

They love life, live in the moment

and tend to find glee wherever they

look. Of course, there are tears and

pouting as well, still . . .

 . . . and a little child shall lead them.

Isaiah 11:6 Yes, taken out of context,

but I like it!

will spring never come

children waiting ecstatic

pray dont disappoint

03/01/2021 (#16 NO WATER)

It has always felt to me that the first

day of each month is like a new

beginning. And, me thinks 'tis new 

beginnings we all need! Thank the

gods there are a dozen of them!

Obviously, we've only had two new

beginnings so far this year. I do recall

writing out dozens of resolutions and

narrowing them down to only three.

Partly, three is my magic number, but

it's also about all I can handle. This

year, I'm thinking of revisiting those

three at the beginning of each month.

Truly, checking in regularly could

serve to keep me on track with my 

own aspirations. They could even

be tweaked a tad here and there . . .

 . . . Nahhhhh!!!

    

be true to myself

honor all my family 

ever faithful friend