awaiting escape
hours few to tantalize
minutes crashing down
women eat drink play
missing life as i knew it
'tis me missing me
silence screams my mind
i whimper sorry sorry
heartbreak held hostage
tears her tears my tears
the ravages of sorrow
streaming down our souls
captive without bail
prisoner behind the bars
of promises made
who you are and were
memories misremembered
nagging in your mind
searching for courage
in places strange right and wrong
needed rarely found
butterflies and moths
bees wasps and yellow jackets
a bit of faery
humming birds lovebirds
chickadees and pigmies
a bit of faery
moon bugs fireflies
dragon flies and lightening bugs
a bit of faery
faeries be welcome
'tis your energy i seek
a healing most strange
sight unexpected
faery tree a'beckoning
a strange compelling
how abates the storm
the winds of time dying down
my soul's hurricane
me mothering you
no more you mothering me
soul emptying soul
she screams in terror
lights flickering in the storm
don't turn out the lights
don't turn out the lights
piteously she whimpers
don't turn out the lights
lucidity dawns
please oh please don't turn them out
a plea in echoes
'midst her sobs she asks
where am i and where is this
and who is that man
he patiently tells
as storytellers must do
holding her with words
i follow his lead
as if with her all were well
cognizant at last
it is oh so deep
the well that holds my sorrow
i have plumbed the depths
that needy feeling
surely only found elsewhere
mars my sense of self
yesterday daydreams
mislaid 'mongst today nightmares
tomorrow rainbows
answers to be found
after questions infinite
in brave acceptance
who i have to be
from the depths of who i was
i am missing me
mewing in the night
summons us to her bedside
prisoners of fear
tick tock tick tock tick
maple in january
time ravishing me
long days longer nights
reality out of sync
the passage of time
in rare chimeras
nostalgia of yesteryear
the street where i live
licking devouring
no respite for the weary
flames all consuming
mirror's reflection
reveals my ghostly image
a slow fade away
the stench of aging
lives ever in my nostrils
begging fragrance free
doors that separate
sleepless nights for her for me
souls' do not disturb
what am i feeling
a craving yearning longing
my life in gerunds
seeking tunnel's end
such courage is required
alas no light there
shudder at the weight
great mother on my shoulders
this pain most worthy
bonds of joy sorrow
souls held gently in embrace
strength in sisterhood
'mongst ash and cinder
me 'n cindy we're tight
ashes to ashes
clock is chiming twelve
my slipper not to be found
just want to go home
run give run serve run
ensconced 'neath needs maternal
do i still exist
clamor of complaints
giving all is not enough
bitter blow defeat
turning cold to warmth
from sleep to wood hearth and fire
toast lady brighid
longing for answers
is fate in the master's hands
running on empty
onslaught to my soul
prey not on me sweet vampyre
i have been ravished
parched with thirst am i
give me water ere i die
prithee who will serve
promises to make
a new year new beginnings
promises to keep
lady an accord
destiny at my crossroads
wisdom strength or both
longing for a shift
winds of change blowing my mind
such naiveté
mary at the well
sweet water to quench her thirst
pray be she sated
seeking depth of soul
such strength needed for this bale
searching finding found
my crown for repose
my kingdom for solitude
my life for free rein
in search of respite
rest repast for the weary
actual holy grail
bless the tie that binds
'tis said to be cut at birth
umbilical cord
ghosts of yesteryear
assail the awakened mind
balm at any cost
a cry in the night
sudden thudding in my chest
fear revisited
mind demanding rest
liminal insanity
permanence beckons
nightmare of winter
two freezing children and snow
now eschewing sleep!
cloud-mind dementia
a sundowners depression
speed of sound aging
timeless alters time
long nights, minutes ticking by
time neverending
don bit and bridle
browbeat me through my paces
ye fate, rein me in
fear overwhelming
the mother lying bereft
by senses deadened
hans notwithstanding
finger in dyke not working
flood gates collapsing
in my hour of need
mother mary come to me
the beatles promised
